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so sorry about that

Next time I'll pay more attention !

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"How to draw a tallywacker"
Next time log out sister, it might turn out embarrassing for you  

Had a accident at work.

Yep.

Those happen.

Namely and much to often to me.

It's kinda ugly, and wil certainly leave a scar.

Was send home after my college's and boss took a look at it, cried on the wayback and my mother treated it immediately.

Now it's just throbbing like a mofo

And ugly.

It's so ugly.

I'm pretty unselfconscionse about my appearance, and not quick to say ill judgemental things about it.

But this,
This melted, mangled flesh on my knuckles?
Yes,
Yes it is most certainly ugly.

Because, Lord knows why, flauws are what makes us human, true?

Anyway, got a melty hand now,
and I'm hungry.

Lunch~

I've been having that feeling again.

Yeah, that feeling.

You know the feeling get when your parents get a new child adn you feel like you're being replaced/ignored/pushed away.

The worthless thing.

I had one of those days a week ago, blamed it on hormones and stuff happening.

Just now I had another moment.

Maybe not a coreshattering realization, or a break-down-and-cry-in-public meltdown.

But a honest to god little poof! That ruined the rest of my day.

Going about my business, prcastinating, browsing, looking at new watching's and their submittions, when I'm jsut about to give a comment on one I particulairly like, when;
"You're opinion doesn't matter to her/him."

Out of the blue, right smack in the middle of my sunny mood, the stupid worthless THING returning to torment me a day anew.

I'm fooling myself with the thought; I matter to people, but saying it out loud, to make sure I don't go crazy or am thought of to be a whiney-arsed child, it would make me look like a bimbo.

Either we are 'whining' or we are 'being to egotisticall'

It seems I can't be either because I'd be treated the same by either my parents or the world.

So, feeling like crap now because of my own doing, what next?

Whine some more? Or suck it up like a man and go about my day, disregarding that my mental state doesn't allow me to slip away from that stupid, truthfull comment that easily.

I don't suffer from self-inflicted harm, nor am I one to say that I am worthless or say I don't matter for the gain of attention.
When I go be like this, vent like some preteen school girl, I mean it.
I'm real, if the comments made by various are true; and I don't go about melodramaticing things for the sake of attention.

Anyway, crappy mood, going out to finish my route.
Laterz

Rules:

1. You must post these rules (VERY Important)
2. Each person must post 10 things about themselves on their journal.
3. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post, and create ten new questions for the people you tag to answer.
4. You have to choose 10 people to tag and post their icons on your journal.
5. Go to their pages and tell them you have tagged her/him.
6. No tag backs
7. No garbage in the tagging section about "you are tagged if you're reading this." You legitimately (AKA, really, truly with all honesty) have to tag 10 people.

Things about me:

1- I'm ridiculously tall =w=
2-I still sleep with a safety blankie
3-Never been on a date
4-Am addicted to tea (British much)
5-Read too much according to friends and family >w<
6-Am austistic
7-ALWAYS carry a notebook with me, you know, for when 'inspiration strikes'
8-Have a soft spot for GG ( Gentle giants ^^)
9- WILL and SHALL hug
10- Want to be a publish author >//w//>

THE QUESTIONS ASKED

1-What is your favorite band?   = Haven't got a preferance.
2-Who is your favorite animated character?    =  FRANCOEUR (and a assortment of others I have no time in explaining, the list is TOO LONG)
3-Which song can you relate to? = Too many XP
4-How tall are you? = last time I check.....6.4 ft
5-Do you like horror movies? (if so, which type of horror film?).....Mhmmm, loved the classic '80 slasher movies, right now I haven't had the time to really WATCH a movie =w=
6-Whats your favorite season? =  Autumn
7-Who's your favorite actor? = Not certain
8-Do your swear at all? = Yes.
9-Which era do you wish you were born in?   =   Tempted to say the 1900' century, but I'm having too much fun in this one so I'm really, REALLY just fine being where I am
10-What type of animal do you want as a pet?  =  A tame rat, common house cat, or....a tortoise OWO


MY QUESTIONS TO YOU!

1-  Where's the rum?
2- Ever read a adult romance novel? If yes, the title?
3- If you were granted a superpower, what would it be?
4-Say that; IF there was such a thing as a dimentional portal, which enables you to travel to a space or place (by teleportation) where all your internet friends, fans, OC's! and soulmates could touch and hug and talk IRL like it was real life...What sacrafice would you make to have this? (need I point out that your creations would be tangible and be life-like as well?)
5-Easy one ; Jelly beans or Gummy bears?
6- Name one item of your warddrobe; which you wouldn't trade for all the latest fashion in the world
7- Name one event in your life that changed who you are and made you the person you are today
8- on a scale from 1-10, how attractive do you find yourself?
9- If the Doctor were to invit you to a lfie of time- travel, adventure, spectacular events and lots of running....would you leave all else behind to join him?
10- Name your favourite snacks


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